Subject: Because I'm lazy

Mood: congested
Music: Live's

I'm a lazy little twirp today, so I'm just going to cut and paste what I emailed to Anne a couple of minutes ago, then tack on the poem I started on the way back from work:

I had a bad day at work today. I started off the morning calling a parent, who spent the whole phone conversation (about ten minutes) belittling me and, in general, acting like an ass wipe. My supervisor came in toward the end, so all she heard from me was "okay.... okay... bye". She said I looked upset, and I nearly cried when I told her about what's going on. I'd left her a note yesterday before I left, telling her I'd had a situation with a client where he'd been oppositional, hood on, backward in his chair, saying he hated coming to see me and wasn't going to show up if I called him down anymore. He walked out on me too, while I was mid-sentence. I'm trying to discuss my concerns with the mother, and she's just like oh you're just an intern, you don't know anything about nonverbal learning disability. I wanted to be like, F U! I live it! I know NLD the way your son does! She is doing her kid a huge disservice by catering to his every whim. First, he wants out of gym class by coming to see me. Then he wants out. He's quits whatever he doesn't like, and the mother pushes for it. She and her husband, the boy's step father, have told me that his behaviour is the direct result of his NLD and that he has no choice. Are they telling their kid he has no choice in the decisions he makes, that he's got a disability, so he's out of control? Because they both wanted to make sure I understood this crap, which they consider to be fact!

I know I'm going off here, but I really got pissed off. Then I had two meetings in a row. In the second meeting, I picked up a client I'd stopped meeting with. The mother had got him outside counseling, and his therapist is now saying he should have someone at school to help him process events that happen there. That was all well and good and positive. Then I had a meeting with client, followed by a cancelled meeting. By the time I got sit down, I had five of my files out. Just looking at them got me flustered, and it took me a bit to slow myself down and get myself organised. I knew it was that NLD kicking in and that I had to suppress it, and doing so made me think of that client from this morning...

AAHHHHHHHHHHHHH!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

I just said that half-assed, because I'm too tired to be a full ass right now.

I need to go take a nap now before I start on my take-home final that's due tomorrow (a case analysis for ethics - oh joy). Then there's church tonight. I got a head cold too, and I'm so out of it.

Man, I'm sure complaining enough to be a full ass right now! Laddah!

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"The Lackluster Shine"

The only airs I walk on
are those pumped into my Nikes

I can feel the meds within me battle
Chemical forces
pushing their own agendas

I claim to be nothing more
than a bistander
I stand by
but not on standby

I tire of the rage
The lust rusts and
corrodes my soul

- dearjoan's shadow

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