Subject: For those who stopped believing

Mood: malaise
Music: "I Alone" by Live

I cannot write about what concerns me most. That would be disloyal disgraceful dishonourable... just wrong, okay? Thoughts hang grievously throughout my mind - jarring images, unrelenting words...

But I can say nothing, save this obscure jumble of monotony...

Unsettled...

Incomplete...

So...

Anyway...

I picked up Lifehouse's "Stanley Climbfall", their sophomore album that was just released today. Bought it at Walmart for $8.Somethingdy-something. It should be illegal to sell art by anyone real for such a cheap price. That album - what I've heard of it so far - is akin to "No Name Face", their debut. Buying a new album from a band you admire is like meeting up with a pal you knew back in high school, and seeing how they've grown. Lifehouse has evolved; that's obvious just listening to the first and second tracks, "Spin" and "Wash". I'll do some catching up with them later.

Speaking of high school friends, I've been hanging around with Jodi again lately. Strange how it all kind of happened. Rain had given me the phone number, but I'd lost it. Then I found it early this week. REALLY wanted to call her yesterday, so I did. We met at Dunkin Donuts twenty minutes later, hung out for a few hours, then spent most of today together. We were quiet only long enough to listen to a couple tunes, and to watch "Clerks", (Jodi hadn't seen it). SO much to talk about! It's been over five years since we've really been around one another. I feel that we're at a similar point in our lives and could benefit immensely from one another, right now.

My cat's batting at a bug on the wall. Oh the joys in life.

- dearjoan

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