WOW did y'all read that fast! Seven reviews within the first twenty-four
hours! THANK YOU SO MUCH!!!
LOL! I love Budwench29's suggestion about
making this an AU! I guess THAT would solve my screwed-up time sequencing! One
way I did think of fixing it would be to get rid of that scene between Jeff and
DW in the first chapter, or at least get rid of DW's seemingly oblivious
comment. I might end up doing that, though y'all have already read the first
chapter. But it makes the most sense.
Anyway, here's chapter
two...
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2:
Break
The navy Chevy Blazer yipped at Jeff when he disarmed its alarm. He
threw open the passenger’s side door and jumped in. Then slammed the door behind
him. He untied his black bow tie, and undid the top three buttons of his suit
shirt. Leaned over the stick shift and slid the key into the ignition. Turned
it. The car sputtered, then roared to a start. Hot air hissed out of the vents.
Jeff leaned his head against the seat and let it hit him. Let it pelt at his
features. Sweat formed above his collar bone, and his underarms dampened. He
shrugged.
His weary eyes darted from window to window; they were all
closed. He’d heard all the warnings about how it wasn’t safe to idle a car with
the windows rolled up. Carbon monoxide poisoning and all. The smile that formed
across his lips made him sick.
Heat intensified. Sweat speckled his
upper lip and dripped down the side of his face. He closed his eyes. Took in a
deep breath. Was that carbon monoxide he smelled, he wondered for a moment, then
slapped his forehead when he remembered that the gas was odorless.
Jeff
glanced about the interior of the car, at the faded, pilly seats, the stains on
the floormats, the antiquated radio with only a scratched-up knob to tune it,
just above a haphazardly installed tape deck. The car had to be at LEAST five
years old. Jeff was guessing ten. Not unlikely that carbon monoxide was seeping
inside from somewhere or other.
He sucked in a heavy breath. His sights
drifted to the floor, where a worn and filthy white tote bag rested against his
foot. A button-eyed lamb face stared back at him. Jeff lifted it out of the bag.
He petted its terry cloth black and observed its goofy, pink thread smile. And
sighed.
He cracked a window. No way he could even take the chance that
Michael’s little girl would find him dead upon returning to the car.
He
hugged the lamb. He knew he wasn’t the first; the cotton in its midsection was
scarce to nonexistent. Jeff’s first real smile in he didn’t know how long
captured his lips. The little girl really loved this lamb. He thought of a time
he saw Macy sitting in the middle of her family’s kitchen floor with the lamb,
talking to herself or to it – Jeff didn’t really know. Any time anybody would
pass by, she would insist that they kiss her stuffed animal. She especially
liked when her daddy came by, because Michael would sneak her a kiss
too.
Macy was adorable. Tears came to Jeff’s eyes as he thought of her,
and her perfect little family. He’d always wanted kids, as long as he could
remember. Brooke hadn’t wanted them; she said they were just a hassle, and all
they ever did was make messes and break stuff. Jeff had hoped that Brooke would
change her mind.
His arms tightened around the lamb. He wagged his head
at himself. Here he was thinking about wanting something he’d never had, when
most everything he DID have once was slipping away from him.
Jeff stared
through the windshield, onto the empty parking deck. Cars lined either side of
the driveway, which intersected with another that ran against a wall, as well as
the door into the lush hotel. Fluorescent lights glared off the tops of the
vehicles. They burned at the young racer’s retinas, so he looked away. Rubbed
his eyes. Then reclined the seat. He lay still, hugging the lamb and staring at
the ceiling.
He was alone. He didn’t know for how long he could hide here
from the lights. He didn’t care either. He just let go. Tears that he’d been
holding in for days sprung to his eyes. He sniffled and let out a whimper. A
tear slid from the corner of his eye and shot down his face. Then another.
Minutes later, they were flowing freely. Jeff clutched the stuffed animal and
turned onto his side, his back facing the car door. He curled up into a fetal
position, his knees to his chin and his feet clunking against the tape
compartment in the middle of the car.
He was sobbing so hard that his
head throbbed. It pulsated against his temples, intensified to the point that he
gasped and held a hand to them. He pressed his thumb into one temple, his index
finger into the other, and willed himself not to cry anymore. But his body
wouldn’t listen. The tears kept coming, his headache only getting worse. He drew
the other hand to his head, and shoved a palm into each temple. Bore down deep
and rubbed in circles with the heels of his hands.
Something warm touched
his back, between the shoulder blades. Jeff jumped; he hadn’t even heard the
door open. Jeff wiped at his eyes and sat up. Turning, he came face-to-face with
Michael. The older Winston Cup driver drew Jeff into a hug, thumping a hand into
his friend’s back. A few seconds, and the embrace broke.
“I think I know
what this is about,” Michael frowned. “Hold on.” He shut the door. Footsteps
beat down around the SUV, before the driver’s side door opened. Michael slipped
inside and slammed it. Jeff winced as the door’s pounding shut vibrated in his
head. Michael turned to the other as Jeff adjusted his seat to the upright
position. Jeff’s sights darted to the floor and trained on his patent leather
shoes.
“Feel like talking?” Michael asked. He rested his hands on the
bottom of the steering wheel.
Jeff shrugged. “What can I
say?”
Michael pursed his lips. “Well, you could say that you loved her.
That you didn’t want her to leave, or to see her with somebody else. And that it
hurts…”
Jeff’s left hand flew to his face, and shielded his
eyes.
Swallowing hard, Michael shook his head. He stared at his knuckles.
“Listen, I shouldn’t be putting words in your mouth.”
Jeff lowered his
hand. He slapped it against his thigh, and stared at the dashboard. “But you’re
absolutely right.” He released a mighty breath through his nose. Then sniffled.
Clearing his throat, he added, “Still can’t believe she left me. I mean…” Deep
breath. “I mean, I don’t care if she’s taking the cars, or the house, or the
money or jet, or any of that stuff.” He furrowed his brow, broke his stare from
the dashboard to gaze at Michael. “I just can’t believe she doesn’t want ME
anymore.” Fresh tears came to his eyes, and he turned away.
Michael
looked after him, watched the other straighten up and continue.
“I know
what went wrong,” Jeff announced, narrowing his eyes. “It’s my stupid racing! I
should have been there for her more.” He swiped his forearm under his nose. “I
was a bad husband.”
“No, you weren’t!” Michael protested, shaking his
head. “Jeff, racing is what you do. Brooke knew that when she married you. She
knew what kind of life you lead.”
Jeff’s headache was now packing a bite.
He clenched his eyes shut.
“You did everything you could,” Michael
assured his friend. “Sometimes… sometimes there’s just nothing you can
do.”
Leaning back, Jeff sunk his head into the seat. He dug the heel of a
hand into his forehead. Words hurt. Sound in general was killing him. He wanted
everything to just stop.
“You’re a great guy, Jeff. And, and if Brooke
couldn’t see that, then maybe you’re better off without her,” Michael sighed. “I
know this must be tough…”
“You do, do you?” Jeff snapped. “You don’t know
what it’s like! Your family’s so damn perfect, how WOULD you
know?”
Michael cringed, and stared into his hands.
Jeff squeezed
his eyes shut. “I’m sorry,” he murmured. “That was uncalled for.”
Michael
managed a smile. He looked to Jeff and said, “You know, you’re right though. I
don’t know. But I wish you didn’t either.”
Silence. Michael glanced over
Jeff, at his strained features and tensioned face. “You look about ready to go
back to the house.”
“Yeah,” Jeff sighed. “Yeah, I am.”
“Okay.”
Michael opened the driver’s side door. Thrusting a thumb over his shoulder, he
said, “I’ll go round up the troops. You just sit tight, okay?”
Jeff
nodded. Weary eyes met with Michael’s. “Hey, thanks for letting me stay with you
while I’m looking for a new place.”
“You’re welcome as long as you want.”
A corner of Michael’s lips turned upwards. “Or as long as you can stand the
noise.”
Jeff surprised himself with another genuine smile. “I like the
noise,” he stated.
Grinning, Michael slid out of the Blazer. “Be back in
a few,” he announced before slamming the door shut.
Jeff watched the
older Winston Cup driver cross the parking lot, blinked as Michael slipped
through the door back into the hotel. Jeff’s eyelids were drooping, heavy with
the thunder and lightening coursing within his cranium. He reclined the seat
again, and again took up the lamb into his arms. If he just went to sleep, maybe
this would all go away. At least he wouldn’t be so damn cognizant of his
headache anymore. He clenched his eyes shut, and knew he couldn’t take anymore
pain. All he had left was sleep. His body wanted nothing else, could handle
nothing less, so it shut down. Jeff drifted into a deep sleep.